God is bigger than the Boogie man.

Okay so I am totally a blog slacker - I know it Abby you don't have to tell me! This turned out to be a terrible week for me - I think. Lucy was gone to Kentucky with her grandparents for the entire week - she is due home today. Which at the first of the week I was so sad bc I missed her so much but today - I can look back over the week and say - I am glad that she wasn't home to see what went on this week. I waited with anticipation for something in my life. It came and I felt utterly and completely blindsided by it. I won't be specific - bc these days it just pays not to be!! I am now faced with a tough - very tough decision. I feel the weight of the choice in my gut - for most my choice won't even effect them but for me - it's a crossroad in my life. I road that my dreams tell me I must cross - to get out of the ditch and be seen for who I really am on the inside - to be seen the way my God sees me. I can tell you some very valuable lessons that I have learned this week.... In fear - people WILL betray you... In anger and greed - people WILL hurt you - In selfishness - people WILL jump ship to save themselves....You will be blindsided....you will be lied too, used, manipulated, spoken to harshly, Oh - I also learned that only a coward feels the need to demean another human being....I also learned that you can't trust most anyone outside of your family (including my girls).....and last but not least - the most valuable lessons that I learned..... that I am a natural born leader, I am a really strong willed, brave, smart, determined, mature, woman that deserves respect, that deserves the truth to her face, that deserves to be happy, and My GOD is bigger than the "boogie" man (that one's for you Tina). I learned in greater knowledge that my family and friends - my true friends will rally around and that they truly would kill for me. God prepared me for what was coming (for the most part - I knew that there was a storm brewing but had no idea what it was to be) - in the midst of the hurricane around me - I felt an unimaginable peace. I learned that this week - I am finally a person that I am proud to be. I also learned - that I am not afraid anymore - even if you don't like the sound of the truth coming out of my mouth. Too often my meekness has been mistaken for weakness.... I won't stand silent any more. My actions are speaking more clearly and loudly than any lies that I could be told. So all in all - not to bad a week I guess - old me would have been utterly devistated - now me - I am excited to see what God has in store. I am praying for God's swift justice. Just like when David had the chance to kill King Saul in the cave - he didn't - he simply cut a piece of Saul's garment to say - hey mighty and power abusing king - I was close enough to kill you - but bc it wouldn't honor God - I didn't. Because despite you - I love you anyway... I learned that God has heard my hearts cries and HE is transforming my heart to be more like the heart of David. On that note - I can't wait to see my punkin' this afternoon. It's been a most long week dude!