Sorry it's been so long since my last blog followers.... So as many of you know - things have been a bit complicated - well that's laughable - things have been horrific for oh about a year now. We are JUST now beginning to understand the ramifications of ministering and reaching out to other people especially when those people are folks the enemy just doesn't want to let of go. When I am on the brink of giving up I remember the words that Jason Upton spoke - I don't want to have to answer when God says, "Why did you give up hope in me - u gave up hope in me when you thought that I couldn't reach the unreachable. I was in the church that sunday morning and to hear what Jason had to say about God forever changed who I am and has changed the way I see things and has just changed every aspect of me. So I have heard this song a billion times but as I was pulling into the office this morning I found myself weeping which I thought was pretty odd - then I realized that I was singing along to the words of this song and it was as if my heart had grasped the words of the song while my mind hadn't quite yet.... John is back on nights and I am beyond frustrated with the state of the "teachers" at Lucy's daycare - some are great well maybe one is great but as for the others - pish...pish...pish.... Here are the words to the song.
I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from HeavenBut I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?
(CHORUS)
What do I know of YouWho spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees
(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
(CHORUS 2)
What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life "its" name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your nameOn earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?
(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?
I tried to hear from Heaven
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I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?
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These are some awesome words, bold. I love this song too, I too found myself convicted just last week under the words of this anointed song. You said something to me last week, or maybe it was the week before, i don't 'member....anywhoo.....you said to yourself, "Do I really believe the words I am speaking out in faith, all of this, God and all I know HE can & WILL do for me, do I believe it, REALLY BELIEVE IT?" That has stuck with me since you said it. I have been in a strange place spiritually, almost dry, but this awakened my soul. Got my intellect to thinking. I know I say I believe and I feel as though I have believed with all MY HEART, all that I have laid before the Lord, but things have got tough and I have had to ask myself what you asked. Self do I really believe?
God has done so much in my life, the precedents have been set, my faith is what it is because of how I have been able to see God move. What is it that the enemy has be so blinded to right now??? I don't know that answer yet, and I know you don't either. But none the less, God is here. I know the scriptures, I know the promises. I hold on to my knowing that God will work ALL, not some, A-L-L thing to the good for those that love HIM. I have to be still right now, for how long, Lord only knows. I'm tired, I'm weak, I'm tired.......did I say I was tired?
Then I look at my best friend fight a disease that has taken over her body and I feel so ashamed that I could complain about pain in my knee, or a headache.....you know that's not the extent of my troubles...but anything physical I feel so guilty for even saying I'm in pain outloud. And the devil is feeding on that too....I haven't told you but I have had some problems too lately, minor compared to yours, but none the less I've been physically attacked. Remember the Elijah LIst a few months ago, I can't remember who, or when, I want to say it was Chuck Pierce who said things were going to be changing in THE BODY & that our body will be changing physically as well as spiritually? I don't know what is going on, but I know who our Pilot is!!
John will overcome night shift, your prayer covering WILL protect Lucy at school and your healing is so close you can taste it! I know these manifestations are coming Mandy. You remember, Life & Death are in the power of the tounge, don't forget to Call out, Speak out your future in prayer and in warning to the enemy.
I love you so much! You truly are one of the most beautiful souls God has ever brought into my life.
Mandy - u know I love you so much. I am so often unaware of the weight of my words - negative and positive. Even when they are words I speak out loud to myself. I am glad that the words that have come out of my situation penetrated your very being. I have known about you for some time and figured you would tell me when you were ready. I have been praying for a total healing of your body - I am unsure of your specifics - u share if you want. I am so often - mostly multiple times a day - finding myself ABSOLUTELY AMAZED by my God. He is so good. I speak it out everyday. I am going to forward you a prayer that you MUST be praying everyday.
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