Lucy's back in bizness

After what has been almost two really terrible daycare months with Lucy - she cried her eyes out yesterday morning. I left in tears saying "I just can't do this anymore". Well I was in anticipation all day as to how she was doing. I even called the director who said, "Oh you are over reacting she's fine" - which just makes me want to punch her square in the eyes - of course I am over reacting - she my first and only child. HELLO? Just a little courtesy please? Is that too much to ask. So I rush home to expect to find a totally trashed toddler. All I heard all afternoon is "MOMMY - Ms. Amie is not mean - I just like her - she's my friend - I did swings and numbers and alphabets songs and danced and I pooped in my class potty". She was simply beaming. So I said, "Did you have a good day" to which she replied - "No mommy I had just a great day". Finally - I am sure that the new teacher Amie - is God's answer to a mother's desperate cries from the heart. Thank you Father and thank you Ms. Amie.

Moved and moving on

Sorry it's been so long since my last blog followers.... So as many of you know - things have been a bit complicated - well that's laughable - things have been horrific for oh about a year now. We are JUST now beginning to understand the ramifications of ministering and reaching out to other people especially when those people are folks the enemy just doesn't want to let of go. When I am on the brink of giving up I remember the words that Jason Upton spoke - I don't want to have to answer when God says, "Why did you give up hope in me - u gave up hope in me when you thought that I couldn't reach the unreachable. I was in the church that sunday morning and to hear what Jason had to say about God forever changed who I am and has changed the way I see things and has just changed every aspect of me. So I have heard this song a billion times but as I was pulling into the office this morning I found myself weeping which I thought was pretty odd - then I realized that I was singing along to the words of this song and it was as if my heart had grasped the words of the song while my mind hadn't quite yet.... John is back on nights and I am beyond frustrated with the state of the "teachers" at Lucy's daycare - some are great well maybe one is great but as for the others - pish...pish...pish.... Here are the words to the song.

I made You promises a thousand times

I tried to hear from HeavenBut I talked the whole time

I think I made You too small

I never feared You at all No

If You touched my face would I know You?

Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

(CHORUS)

What do I know of YouWho spoke me into motion?

Where have I even stood

But the shore along Your ocean?

Are You fire? Are You fury?

Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?

What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out

I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about

How You were mighty to save

Those were only empty words on a page

Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be

The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

(CHORUS)

What do I know of You

Who spoke me into motion?

Where have I even stood

But the shore along Your ocean?

Are You fire? Are You fury?

Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?

What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

(CHORUS 2)

What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?

And a God who gave life "its" name?

What do I know of Holy?

Of the One who the angels praise?

All creation knows Your nameOn earth and heaven above

What do I know of this love?

(CHORUS)

What do I know of You

Who spoke me into motion?

Where have I even stood

But the shore along Your ocean?

Are You fire? Are You fury?

Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?

What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?